But I just can’t shake the thought that that injection tomorrow is going to kill my baby. Even though its not even got as far as being a baby and never will. It just feels so wrong. I know I have to do it but it just feels like I shouldn’t be. Its mine. I made it. Its feeding off me. Yes so slowly that they don’t think it has a heartbeat yet and it would probably kill me before it did if left. But its there, starting out exactly as my other children did, just in the wrong place. And I am ending it. I completely know I have to do this and I can’t risk something happening to me by waiting any longer for nature, and it will never be a baby in my arms. But I honestly feel like I am a bad person for agreeing to this tomorrow.
Has anyone else ever felt like this? My partner and friends are being so supportive but I feel like I sound absolutely bonkers when I say letting them put that needle in me tomorrow feels like I am killing my baby
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